04.29.08 | 10:53 AM
Has it really been 50 days since I last visited you, dear diary? Apparently so. In that time, I've been across the country - hitting everywhere from D.C. and New York to Las Vegas. The next month brings a return trip to NYC for my 25th birthday and a nice long weekend in Iowa for shopping and Amish things with my mother. How terribly wholesome, no?
The last few weeks have been hard as I have been dealing with things surrounding G. I know that he loves me, he always has and always will. He misses me. That's a nice feeling to have, to know that you are missed. We've been open about a lot of things that I don't necessarily bring up to just anyone. He is a place where I can keep all my secrets and he sees the best in me. I think I could wax poetic on all his positive qualities for hours... I just love him. When it comes down to it, when I look at how I truly feel about him, I just love the man. He's my heart.
My mom is doing well in her treatment and has happily seen the cancer slip into remission. My best friend got a new job that seems to yank her around at every turn. My brother is getting married in July and might join the military. My other brother is going to start high school in the fall. My dad is the same as he has always been. My nephew is speaking like an adult. Life changes daily but has a common thread that holds everything together. I'm glad for that.
Everything that we are now is everything we can't let go. ("I Hope Tomorrow Is Like Today" - Guster)