herskin's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Her Mom My mom has cancer. Anyway I shape it, the fact remains that my mom is sick. It's not as bad as it could be, but it's not as good as it could be either. There are so many things that have come up as a result of that, things I had long ago buried when I didn't want to revisit but have been forced to. I am realizing more and more every day that I'm no longer a carefree child. Whether I like or not, I am now a full-fledged adult. Deadling with my mom's illness is one of those things that I have to do as that adult. I've told the people closest to me, my best friends and the family that I rely on to keep me sane. It amazes me which people showed up and have been the support that I needed. Others have undoubtedly disappointed me. One boy in particular says that he wants to be with me, but yet, he hasn't said a word to me about this. And the boy that I have loved since I was 17, well...he remains as enigmatic as ever. It's scary that I could lose my mom to something like this. It's not at that point now, but it could be eventually. It could also come back. I am told to stay hopeful, to be strong. I can do that for her, but when I am alone, these thoughts enter my mind and I have to think about them. We haven't always been close, but I don't know what I would do without my mom. I need her in my life. We are only now starting to fix the things that were broken when I was a kid. My mom has cancer. And that sucks. Take time to realize I'm on your side. Didn't I tell you? Take time to realize this could all pass you by. ("Realize" - Colbie Caillat) 8:34 PM - 03.04.08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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